SURRENDERED

Dear God

You have always been all knowing and yes my human self void of plenty needed knowledge, You have always been such a comfort to me and a sense of stability, right now I’m sure of nothing and feeling really shaken up and so I’m coming to You without any of the answers or solutions, I doubt I even know the right words to pray or the whether my heart is in the right place, this world is so full of unsure ness and I surrender my all into your hands, please show me step by step what you will of me and I pray I obey You with my all, in Jesus name I pray

AMEN

It does not mean that I am weak again

for I am strong

It does not mean I am lost again

for in you Abba i am found

in You Abba I find victory

in You Abba I AM WHOLE

SILENCED

Because this is my existance
Not to offend anyone, but i am refusing to be sworn to silence any longer
by accusations that i should get over apartheid, it ended over a decade ago
and yet still today i must limit my speech and turn a blind eye to the prejudice i see and live

Because this is my existance
Not to offend anyone, but i am refusing to be sworn to silence any longer
when i can see and feel that you have an attitude against the colour of my skin
that privileges are held back for those of a different shade

Because this is my existance
Not to offend anyone, but i am refusing to be sworn to silence any longer
when i see humans turn against humans
when greed would cut off a hand

i am not against any race nor am i for any race
i am for human kind
the things i voice are not my unforgiven history
they are my now and so
I speak against: 

LIES
CORRUPTION

HATRED

RAPE

GENOCIDE

KILLINGS

PREJUDICE

POVERTY

PAIN

LACK OF EMPATHY

GREED

...etc

because this is my UNWANTED UNACCEPTED existance!