destiny's call

Note how a satelite image shows no borders, yet we kill for them...

Recently i took a walk back in history, looking at the different amazing things that had an influence on my life and thinking in depth about exactly how these things had an influence and why they were.. One thing is for ceratin, ones inner being determines who they are and it is in understanding that true depth of ones self that would give them the understanding of how deep and far their potential truly lies. For me i went back to my youth surrounded by freedom fighters and the strength they represented, then i did not understand what they were about, all i knew was these people were alive, they had this contagious vibe about them, a belief that ran deep in their cause. They were loud, funny, out spoken and they were a community, they were strong, no matter where i met them in the world.  What a group they were indeed, i remember falling asleep at a party who's sole form of music were african drummers. I remember "cousins" with so many different accents all depending where they were raised..i remember a different life and if it is true that everything i experienced then and the powerful characters i am surrounded by now are a part of that statement "everything happens for a reason" then i know the reason for me learning all i did has not been fulfilled. Surely if such a fire was built strong then, it sustained not just to be quenched by time and todays unsurities, surely it was built to light certain fires when the time was right, so Lord, You know why and i gave my all to You, use me that i not continue to know that there is a reason for it all but never see its fulfillment, use me and thank You for the 27 years that i've been alive. May i give my daughter a chance at what my many parents gave me, a sense of destiny and the strength to be the woman she should be....

p.s to you all- May you have a day in which you'll discover your true value, a day in which you'll discover what really matters in life, a day where you will forgot your many reservations

and excuses not to be every bit as powerful as u were meant to be, a day u will ignore stereotypes of u & all those ppl that know exactly how low ur potential lies, i dont care if they have known have "known u" all ur life, shake it off, 2day i wanna see u shock the world and dare to start being the man or woman u were destined to be, today we wanna meet you, the real you!

gentle wise scissors cut this chord

What does one do when someone they've loved all their lives seems to be draining the very life out of you with their never ending demands, never ending guilt trips and never present gratitude, then you remember that they are a big part of special moments through out your days, mixed emotions where you feel you owe one your gratitude but at the same time are begging that person for permission to live.  The battle faced by a child needing a parent to let go, who knew it would be such a fight, set me free...!!!

But for the chance to start an evolution,  build an empire, journey the seven seas, feed a million orphans, touch a billion lives, make a life without feeling guilty,

pyramids, Kilimanjaro

nothings stopping me but my "submissive" mentality

maybe if i examine it real well, speak out and stubbornly choose to live i'll realise i am free!

Maybe if i look around i'll notice that everyone has a wall they nurture and cherish, an invisible wall that stands between them and their wildest dreams

maybe I realise that my choice of an invisible wall is this crazy belief that if i stand up to my family they may start hating me but this is not true and even if it was, would i die to my own life to avoid dying out of their worlds,

what is your invisible wall, one day when you open your eyes you will realise 

we in Christ are all are free but for our mentalities...