Friday, January 14, 2011

gentle wise scissors cut this chord





What does one do when someone they've loved all their lives seems to be draining the very life out of you with their never ending demands, never ending guilt trips and never present gratitude, then you remember that they are a big part of special moments through out your days, mixed emotions where you feel you owe one your gratitude but at the same time are begging that person for permission to live.  The battle faced by a child needing a parent to let go, who knew it would be such a fight, set me free...!!!

But for the chance to start an evolution,  build an empire, journey the seven seas, feed a million orphans, touch a billion lives, make a life without feeling guilty,
pyramids, Kilimanjaro
nothings stopping me but my "submissive" mentality
maybe if i examine it real well, speak out and stubbornly choose to live i'll realise i am free!

Maybe if i look around i'll notice that everyone has a wall they nurture and cherish, an invisible wall that stands between them and their wildest dreams
maybe I realise that my choice of an invisible wall is this crazy belief that if i stand up to my family they may start hating me but this is not true and even if it was, would i die to my own life to avoid dying out of their worlds,
what is your invisible wall, one day when you open your eyes you will realise 
we in Christ are all are free but for our mentalities...

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